Thursday, January 14, 2010

Venting Time

Today really sucked. It was just one of those days. I had to wake up 2 hours early because I had a lot to do before I went to school. Well, i was happy because I did it all and felt so productive. But when I got to school I was informed that I had missed my first period class that i didn't know i had because it's the weird semester change. So I had to explain to my teacher why I wasn't there. Then, I suddenly started thinking of Jackie and decided I was just going to talk to the stupid counselor and get over with it because I knew if I talked about it I'd feel better afterwards. Well I try to get to the counselor when the Dean finds me and tells me that everything with my payments for my college classes are all messed up so that was annoying. So finally I get to talk to the counselor. Well let me tell you it was really akward I've only talked to her like twice. But we basically sat in a room with tons of damn windows while I sobbed and i could see everyone staring at me! Of course this was during gym so I was missing it when i had intended on being out of her office by the end of the passing period. Well after like 25 minutes I calmed down enough to go to my car to get my gym clothes when I broke down in my car for another 20 minutes. So then I finally get to gym class where we're doing this psycho thing and i just don't have the energy for it. After gym I went to government where i had a HUGEE migraine from crying my stupid brains out. Which, apparently I don't have a brain because my teacher told me that the test i studied 3 days straight for like 2 hours each day I got a D on. Then, we had to take a quiz on something I wasn't there for so i probably failed that too. Then I went home where i felt so sick but had made plans to hang out with my friend Ashley and this guy Jim that we grew up with but havent seen in years so it was like a reunion. Well, Ash invited this other girl who didnt even really know Jim but was in our neighborhood and don't get me wrong, i love her but of course her and Ash were so obnoxious the whole time and i felt like I was left to have to entertain Jim which of course I felt so insecure about the whole time wondering what he thought of me after all these years, I mean i'm still fat! And I just felt like i said random stuff that didnt make any sense and he thinks i'm a total crack ass. So that sucked ass. Then Ashley had to be home at 9 so we had to end it early and had the akward goodbye and then I went home thinking that I wish I had not been such a douche bag! And of course I talked to my best friend Jazzy but I can't hang out with her because she left for California today so I'm at home alone at 9 on a Weekend! I ate some things I shouldn't have, not too bad but off track and of course I did't work out in gym so I feel twice as bad!! ughhh :(

And then of course i go to take the weekly picture and i feel like i look bigger. really?!

this has been a bad day. thank you for letting me vent. I'm usually a positive person but I have to let the negative out so I don't hold on to it. Thanks for listening :)


  1. I'm sorry Kelly, it really does sound like a totally crappy day. Those days happen sometimes.

    The good thing is that it's just one day, not every day. Normally you have a great attitude, have great friends around you and are really upbeat and happy. You're allowed to have an off day now and then.

    Don't worry about it too much sweetkie. As my mom use to say, this too shall pass.

    Also, it's probably too early to notice your loss yet. It'll take time before you can see the results of your hard efforts. Just hang in there, keep eating healthy and try to get a little exercise in. You're doing great and you'll be fine. :)

  2. school is never easy sometimes... but it was good you talked to the counselor. and for all those people staring- forget them. Seriously.

    i had a bad day today as well (my other blog: < I wrote about it there) and we all have bad days. just do your best and that's all anyone can ask for.

    keep your head up. it'll get easier.

  3. Sorry to hear you had such an awful day. I hope things will be looking up after a good night's sleep.

  4. I too am having a bad say that keeps on going. I hope to keep it together but right now it's not looking promising. I just tell myself that it will pass and get better. Hope you have something wonderful planned for the weekend!

  5. Aww... Sometimes everything goes wrong on one day... It's always good to have a cry and not to bottle things up. Hope you have a brighter day tomorrow... :o)

  6. I'm sorry you had such a bad day. They're always such a pain to go through. It sucks to have to go through all of that, and in one day too. I hope today's better for you and that you kick ass at everything today. :)

  7. Actually, I had a horrible day yesterday too. So let's make today the best day for the both of us!

  8. Ugh, I hate days like that. They just make you want to crawl under the covers and never come out. But you are so much stronger than that, so I'm sure this weekend will be much better for you!

  9. We all have them, don't we? That's a pretty bad one though, sorry!

    On a LIGHTER are DEFINITELY SMALLER!! I can totally tell that you are slimming down, girl, especially in your face. So the day wasn't a complete wash-out after all! And I am very impressed that you took the photo even though you were feeling crappy, that took guts!

    Hang in there-and venting was TOTALLY the right thing to do, you're awesome!


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