today I woke up to the news that one of my friends, Jackie, died. The last time i talked to her we made plans to hang out. Whenever I couldn't sleep she was usually the one I texted because she was ALWAYS up. A year ago I wasnt friends with her. i'd even go as far to say i didnt like her. But this year we had classes together and we became friends. She sits right behind me in consumer class and we talk all the time. On monday the class is going to the computer lab to work on our lifesmart projects. It is basically a project that we plan out our future with finances and stuff. Every time we go to the computer lab it's always my friend kelly sitting on one side of me and jackie on the other. I cant imagine going in on monday and not having jackie sit by me. I dont want to imagine it but i have to. because it's going to be real soon. And it's crazy because we would always talk about our futures and college plans. And now she's gone. 4 months before we graduate high school. I just can't believe how life goes sometimes. She was an amazing person. She wanted to be a nurse and help people. And though i cant believe we'll never walk together or talk in the parking lot, i can learn from her. Life comes and goes and though it's cliche you have to live life like its your last day. because it really could be. and I need to live like that and stop killing myself with unhealthy ways. I have to do it for jackie and more importantly, i have to do it for myself.
Rest in peace jackie, i love you and miss you. But I know you are in a better place <3